~cinta x semestinya memiliki~

Bila kita jatuh cinta pada seseorang, jangan menyiksa diri dengan menganggap bahawa cinta kita tak diterima.

Cinta itu tak pernah ditolak kerana, setiap insan memerlukan, menginginkan untuk dicintai.

Wujudkan cinta itu dengan memberikan sesuatu bukan mengharap harap akan sesuatu sebab, apa yang diberikan kerana cinta selalu datang pada hati kita disaat itu juga.

Kebahagiaan memberi jauh lebih sempurna dari pada kebahagiaan kerana menerima.

Tapi…lain bila kita menginginkan sesuatu yang kita cintai. Keinginan itulah yang memberikan pahit pahit yang menghiris dada…

Jangan menyiksa diri dengan menginginkan sesuatu….

Jangan sia kan cinta dengan beban yang berat mengharap mampu di pikul bahu.

Keinginan memiliki mungkin tak kesampaian…

Tapi…

Percayalah pada diri…
Selalunya cinta yang kita berikan seadanya
Takkan pernah bertepuk sebelah tangan..

~benarkah cinta itu menyakitkan?~

Setiap orang mempunyai makna cinta yang tersendiri. Ada yang kata, cinta itu menyakitkan dan jangan kau hampirinya. Tetapi, ada juga yang kata, cinta itu mengasyikkan sehingga kau akan terbawa-bawa dengan ombak asmaranya. Dan ada juga yang kata, cinta itu indah dan tiada ungkapan yang dapat menyatakan maksud cinta yang sebenar.

Bagi yang mengatakan bahawa cinta itu menyakitkan, ianya memang benar. Walau sepadan mana pun sepasang kekasih itu, akan ada juga masalah yang timbul. Ianya boleh diibaratkan, langit tak semestinya sentiasa cerah. Dalam berkapel ini, kita memang tidak boleh lari dari masalah. Bahkan, kita sendiri yang perlu menghadapinya dan juga menyelesaikan masalah tersebut.

Kesakitan cinta ini makin terasa ngilunya apabila sebuah pasangan itu hancur musnah. Apa yang dijanjikan selama ini, menjadi dusta belaka. Ketika baru sahaja clash, semuanya menjadi tak kena. Semuanya dipersalahkan. Itu tak betul, ini tak betul. Terasa diri ini dihimpit oleh sebuah keretapi dan tiada siapa yang ingin menolong.

Jadi, sekiranya anda ingin bercinta dengan seseorang, ingatlah. Cinta ini tak semuanya indah. Dan anda perlu bersedia untuk menghadapi sebarang kemungkinan yang berlaku. Yang pasti, dalam percintaan akan ada pasang surutnya perhubungan. Cuma kita tidak tahu, bila ia akan berlaku. Mungkin hari ini, esok, lusa dan bila-bila masa.

~still can't 4get~

No matter how much you hurt me
No matter how much you don't care for me
No matter how much you make me suffer
Why... I still love you?
I need to know, just tell me
Is it me who change or
Is it you who change...

You mean the world to me
But I can't bear all the pain that you've given me
Can't you see how much I've been hurt?
How my heart and soul is dying?

I want to hang on because I love you
I want to hold on because you are my world
I want to believe that love can conquers all
Could you tell me how..?
How can I hang on if the person I am hanging on doesn't care about me?
How can I hold on if my world is tumbling down?
How can I believe in love if the one who teaches me to love is not the same anymore?
Now can you tell me how?

If you love me, why can't you understand me?
Why can't I feel your support?
Why can't I feel your care?
Why can't I feel your love?
Every time you ignore me
It cuts like a knife
A knife that stubs me
A knife that slowly kills me...

I don't know how long this pain will remain on me
I don't know how long I will crave for you..
I don't know how long I will love you
I don't know...I don't really know..

I want to be with you
I want to hug you, kiss you
Tell the world how much you mean to me..

Maybe only time can heal all of this
Maybe only time will fix my broken heart..
..i dont need u to listen..but,..if u cud c wat im not saying..

~here again~

erm..ni la aku...kat blog ni lg utk tulis ape je yg aku rasa ari ni. problem aku?? maybe ade penyelesaian...maybe belum ade penyelesaian..ape yg aku tau semuanya aku kena hadapi dgn tenang and always be positive. kdg2 rasa hidup ni kosong. semua benda yg buat aku happy, dtg & pegi..mcm sesuatu yg hilang diganti dgn yg baru...aku xtau ape lg yg aku nak cari dlm hidup ni..rasa dh hilang arah sgt...xde tujuan..aku rasa aku boleh hadapi semuanye, tp kdg2 aku xblh sembunyikan perasaan aku sendiri..menangis...mungkin tu je yg aku blh buat utk lepaskan rasa sedih & xpyh share ape yg aku rasa dgn org lain...ape yg dh jd buat aku makin susah nk percaye kat semua org...hurmm..cuma aku je yg blh tlg diri aku sendiri...impian aku...harapan aku..semuanye makin jauh aku rasa..thats it...

gud nite sume.....

~life is the process of finding love~

**juz found this somewhere**

Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.

First person is you,
Second person is the one you love most,
Third person is the one who love you most,
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves you most. When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the SAME person.

The one you love most doesn't love you.
The one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most. He is just the person who happens to be at the RIGHT PLACE at the RIGHT TIME.

WHICH PERSON ARE YOU IN OTHER PEOPLE'S LIFE?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.
But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore.
When he loves you, he can't pretend that he doesn't.
Same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.

When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you. You must ask yourself if you still love him, If you also don't love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride. If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it. If you stop him from finding true
happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him, And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive;
If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin, But the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words,
when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person.
Let him become a permanent memory in you life.
If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is.
Love him for his good points, and the bad, You can't wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him. If he can't change to become what you like him to be, you don't love him anymore.

When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him, You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criterias. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end. Being away from each other is a type of test, If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat. Real love will never become hate.

When two people are in love, They love to ask each other to swear, to make promises. Why do they ask each other to swear and promise? Because they don't trust each other, they don't trust their lover. These swear and promises are useless;
Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!
We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry,
Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?

Be careful when making promises; don't make promises that you cannot keep.
Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually.
Remember, swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!!
In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;
The one saying, doesn't believe;
the one listening, also doesn't believe.

~regret~

have u ever gave up?
gave up on hopes?
gave up on people u trust?
or gave up on yourself?

hmmmm....

i did....
n its hard when you want to pull yourself
back together
you felst so weak even thousand of hands can help u
a pair beautiful wings can lift u up
not even a powerfull spell or magic to do so....

wut i need was...
A TIME TO RECOVER
AN AIR TO BREATHE
A SPACE TO MOVE
AND A MIND TO THINK
is it worth of doing something stupid??
its my fault 4 not asking it to myself...

instead of that,
i kept on walking barefoot to an unclear path....
with no signs....
at last i ended up regret myself of doing so...

HOW STUPID IS THAT???

~forgive~

The more grudges you carry, the heavier your burden becomes.
Forgive, and let them go.
When someone has wronged you, it hurts.
There is certainly no sense in using your own time and energy to prolong that hurt.
Forgive, and you can begin to move away from the pain.
Forgive, and you can move forward with a much lighter load.

Forgiveness does not mean that you allow others to take advantage of you.
On the contrary, forgiveness gives you positive power no matter what others may have done.

Anger and spite can eat away at life until there's almost nothing of value left.
Forgive, and free yourself from the grips of that anger.

Forgive, and you'll be much better off. Forgive, and you'll be free to truly live.

~my destination~

I have been so uninspiring lately…lifeless and story-less. Even when I pick up the phone and chat with my frenz or family, I would go on and on talking about study. And why do I think about my study so much? It’s a choice actually. I don’t have to if I want to, and now I know that I don’t want to.

I’m pretty much future-oriented, that as crazy and spontaneous I am in living my life, I am also very structured in building and living my career path. I know what I want, and I am determined and focus. Not ambitious, just well-planned. At present, I now feel as if I am stopping on the left lane, reaching for my map thinking whether I still wanna go to the destination I have planned to. And as I look at the map, I am surprised of how many new places there are that I haven’t been aware of. And even when I still want to reach my initial destination, there are so many new ways. There’s just, so much of life in the offing I feel like experiencing all.

Life’s very exciting, and I want to feel the thrill. I want to share, I want others to feel happy too.

This is so random I know, but this all is what’s currently on my mind. Pretty random, yes? huhu~

What I wanna do in the next few months before 2010 comes:

• Stop thinking and talking so much about my study and just enjoy the days.
• Hold on to my map, experience new places without having to get lost and forget where I should be heading.
• Learn new things. Learn how to cook, to sing, to love n appreciate other person
  
• Make a contribution to the society. (contribute wut???hehehe)
  
• Stay happy and young, for I am forever young.

p/s:: Lets stay on track, frenzz. No matter how much fun we can have, we should always have a purpose of life to make ourselves worth being.

~aku kau dan dia~

*hari ni sgt penat dowhh...mlas nak tulis pnjang2.layan ja k*

Cinta itu abstrak natijahnya.
Tidak seperti nahu matematik yang tepat;
tidak seperti tindak balas kimia yang boleh dirumuskan.
Jadi, tidak boleh dipaksa sekiranya bukan milik kita;
tidak perlu curiga sekiranya pasti milik kita.
Selalunya cinta yang tegar besar dugaannya

~end of holiday~

aku baru ja lpas packing brang. sok dah nak bli mlaka. tekanan dah mula terasa. baru ja nak hepy2 ngan family. apa nak wat kan.... stdy pnya psal..kata uitm dihatiku (mcm geli ja). bla plak la nak leh blik pas nih...hmmmm...mcm letey arr ari nih..bru blik dr umah kak aku..dia bru ja pindah jitra..continue tomorrow la...tired dowh...gud nite everybody....mmmuacckss....

p/s:: doakan perjalanan aku naik bas ke melaka selamat ya....

~heartbreaker~

I desperately wish he would understand
And maybe give the both of us another chance
But he had given his final say
Says won't think of it any more today

All right I shall respect your decision
But don't come running to me lost in confusion
It's better that we stay the way we are
To live life happily without a care

Don't regret one day if my feelings change
Cause I can't guarantee you it will remain the same
What if I find somebody else who's worth?
Someone who is more deserving of my love?

Perhaps you will bend your head and cry?
Or just shrug your shoulders and start to sigh
Whatever your reactions will be
It would not matter at all to me

Till then your apology won't be accepted
Add me to the broken hearts you've collected
There isn't any place in my heart for me to grieve
So I am definitely glad I got you over with

I hope you are sorry for what you've done
Like breaking my delicate heart for one
I leave it to time to heal my pain
To put out the fire as a result of your flame

I really thought you were a piece of a puzzle I need
To make my whole life full and complete
But now you leaving me all alone without a cure
That is perfectly all right cause I love you no more

~malaszz~

hati aku nih rasa berat ja..
xmau blik melaka boley???
rasa cam baru ja smpai alor star..
yuran pun xbayar lg
bleh dok wat bodo lg
bju pun xbsuh lg
pas nih nak kna adjust balik time nak bgn tido
klau x nak bgun kul 1p.m pun takpa
ni nak kna bgun seawal pg class 8.30a.m
sbar uyun...sabar...
fikirkan boleh
(sambil bernyanyi2 lagu fkirkan boleh)
pasnih aku mst miss anak buah aku
walaupun buas mcm jepun aku sayang dia
dia la buah hati pengarang jantung aku
*padahal asyik cubit dia ja smpai dia naik horror ngan aku*

motivasi utk diri sendri:: uyun!!!!kali ni blajaq betoi2 jgn dok main2 dah...fkir priority ok!!!chayok2

~hadapi dengan senyuman~

Hadapi dengan senyuman
Semua yang terjadi
Biar terjadi .
Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
Semua... Kan baik baik saja

Bila ketetapan tuhan
Sudah ditetapkan
Tetaplah sudah
Tak ada yang bisa merubah
Dan takkan bisa berubah

Relakanlah saja ini
Bahwa semua yang terbaik
Terbaik untuk kita semua
Menyerahlah untuk menang

~ku d alam maya~

holla.......
luahan rasa kali ni berhijrah ke alam maya plak...xda tempat dah nak ngadu so laptop ni dah mcm bff dah. kira mcm cyber diary la konon..apasal mood rasa cam xbest ja ek??...nak kata pms blum lg kot..xkan sbb bnyak mkn lak...ka tringat kat dak 2?? haishhh

haaa......aku tau napa...sbb lg 2 hari nak blik melaka...aduyai....xnak blik leh x??hwaaaa benci2 rsa nak lari ja..

bosan la weh nak blik sana..ntah napa terasa cam pressure ja..kekadg rsa cam dah letey dh blajar. tp rsanya ilmu blum pnuh d dada..dlu klau nak blik sna mcm best ja. gedik2 nak blik..skang nih mcm dah lack of interest la..bosan sgt p class skang nih..aku rsa skang nih class 2 mcm dah berpuak2 plak..dlu rsa cam 1 family ja..kekadang fkir lantak la janji aku leh blajar tp cam xbest plak rsa cam hipokrit ja. dah la course aku 2 pnuh ngan kehipokritan..

honestly skang nih nak blajar pun dah xtenang..(penguat semangat pun dah invisible...sob...sob...sedey2) muka mcm bg sepenuh tumpuan padahal renungan 2 leh tembus white board 2...mka lecturer 2 dah nmpak mka org lain dah...

gla takut nak msuk sem baru...apa plak la drama kali nih...xsbar nak tgk..nyway drama aku dah lpas..drama aku smpat brapa episod ja lpas 2 dah kna bar...huhu~..takut nk jmpa lecturer baru..agak2 ada x ek yg horror...

owh...untuk sekian lma hri ni mr m.a.s call..xtau mimpi apa..anyway heppy arr...lately ni asyik fight ja..mlas nk igt lg....sakit hati...

p/s:: ngantuk dah. gila mlm2 baru nak wat blog. mcm xleh tgu hari siang...sambung esok..daaaa..mmuaccks